Late Night Ponderment

Today is a day, before a very traditional day in the calender, where half the world make a change in their daily lives, in some way...

Knowing this...I indulged... and feel like shit after doing so...

I hope tomorrow's different.
I hope....there's something to smile about.

For today, I was a lazy, fat piece of shit.

Maybe God can be a reason to change, if anything.

Talked to my sister tonight, we both really hated ourselves today...
I hate this feeling.

Mini Goal - Go to bed...happy, content and with something to smile about.

Thoughts for Today

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Will tomorrow be different?


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Terrible Start

Today I went to the Gym.
Paid some money to do so.

Walked 'briskly' for about 35minutes and ran for about 10secs on the treadmill.

I am very unfit.
I am very unhappy.

I ate ALOT of bad food today.
I looked in the mirror and wanted to smash it.

I'm sick of my body.
I hate it.

Will I ever be beautiful?